I haven’t written in over two months. It honestly feels a little weird to be sitting here typing on my laptop. When I write I have to get in the zone you know? No distractions, just me and my feelings. But anxiety and fear have grown and the world has gotten darker so I’ve avoided writing in fear of opening up to my emotional side. That’s not any way to live life though. If 2020 has taught us anything, it’s that we need to have faith in ourselves and others. We need to be vulnerable and feel absolutely everything. Feel the fear, the sadness, the joy, the anxiety, the heartbreak, and the weight lifted off of our shoulders. I realized that the only way to move on from everything holding us back is to talk about it. But actually talk about it, you know? Sure some people have therapists but even they are experiencing this. We’re all going through this outrageous time and we don’t know when or IF things are going to go back to normal. And speaking of normal, what is that to you? You don’t know anymore, do you? That’s okay. Change your normal. Change it so that you only do what makes you happy, change it so you remove the toxic people from your life, change it so that you are open with yourself and you can become your own best friend. Yes things are bad, this is a shit year, etc. but there are amazing things going on too. This is our chance to open our eyes, FINALLY. We needed this to happen to realize our own mortality. This is OUR chance to fix all the shit that we’ve destroyed. The world is healing, there is less pollution, animals are walking freely, and even though we’re separated, humans are closer than ever. Stop complaining about how rough this situation is and start practicing gratitude. However, I digress, of course we’re always going to need that place where we can blow off that steam and rant and vent about whatever we’re going through. So, I’m here to offer this post as your anonymous rant space. If you ever feel like you need to say something that you feel like no one will understand, this will be here to hear you out. I can’t promise that no one will read it but 1) they won’t know who’s comment it is and 2) I doubt anyone wants to spend time reading about someone’s problems – that’s weird don’t do that. Even if you just type it to see what you’re feeling and delete it, at least you thought of my blog to let everything out. This is for you; I offer my love, positivity, and support in your life journey and if you need this post, it will always be here for you.
Comment down below if you need to and thank you. Seriously, thank you for being here, you have no idea how much I appreciate you. – Jan